
Sometimes our shortcomings are bigger secrets that we would rather die with than reveal. It might sound wierd, but it is often true. I take a leaf of the book made into a movie called 'The Reader' starring Kate Winslet and Ralph Fiennes where Kate Winslet or Hannah Schmitz is a guard in a tram company in Germany when she falls in love with Michael Berg played by David Kross, the 15 year old portrayal played later by Ralph Fiennes. What becomes an important part of the story is when Michael begins to read snippets out of literature which transport Hannah Schmitz to a different world which she could never discover on her own.
It is only years later in the court room that the budding lawyer Michael happens to be at the trial of the main defendent Hannah Schmitz accused of locking 300 people in a church, all Jews of a Nazi camp in Germany during Hitler's time. With just one survivor who has identified six defendents, there is no hope for them being released. Hannah is accused of being the main conspirator who wrote the report to carry out the task. But Hannah can't write in the first place. A truth that might have saved her. But sometimes when we'd rather keep the secret locked in our soul than face the reality that people might smirk at us, it is tough to get the will to let go of our inhibitions in a fraction of a second. When all we can contemplate is whether or not to reveal the shortcoming and whether we would be able to handle the torment of truth that people are mocking us. Sometimes we put our fears before what we need to do to help save our precious lives and live with dignity the way we deserve to.
But sometimes our insecurities defy logic and reasoning. And before we realize, the fraction of a second has changed our life. But why does Michael stop himself from meeting Hannah and helping her in her ordeal of revealing the truth of her illiteracy? What went through his mind, what would go through yours if you were in his shoes? It would be easy to say you would speak up. But in the circumstances that Michael was in and the kind of person he was, he lived in a shell. And again for him revealing the secret of his affair which unlocked the mystery of Hannah accepting that she was guitly when she wasen't the main conspirator, was a conflict within him that he lived with all his life.
Often, there is no reason for our actions. The answer to a question might be simple, but getting ourselves to face the fact and acting as per what is logical is the litmus test. Especially when we are thrown into situations that paralyse our thinking power and override logic.
But sometimes our insecurities defy logic and reasoning. And before we realize, the fraction of a second has changed our life. But why does Michael stop himself from meeting Hannah and helping her in her ordeal of revealing the truth of her illiteracy? What went through his mind, what would go through yours if you were in his shoes? It would be easy to say you would speak up. But in the circumstances that Michael was in and the kind of person he was, he lived in a shell. And again for him revealing the secret of his affair which unlocked the mystery of Hannah accepting that she was guitly when she wasen't the main conspirator, was a conflict within him that he lived with all his life.
Often, there is no reason for our actions. The answer to a question might be simple, but getting ourselves to face the fact and acting as per what is logical is the litmus test. Especially when we are thrown into situations that paralyse our thinking power and override logic.

